She waited
Until we were finished to tell me
We were finished.
She was going to finish
Her degree she said and I said
I’m happy
For you what about me I said
Over and over but to myself even I
Knew it was selfish to be
Thinking what about me when this was
All about her but I
Cried a little and left a little shell
Shocked wondering how I could ever
Replace her. Of course
This wasn’t the first time this had happened
To me this wasn’t even the first time
This had happened to me with her.
When she moved to California I didn’t think I’d ever
see her again and I saw other people
Of course I did it wasn’t the same but I couldn’t just
Go without someone so I settled
In with someone else until she left too and I
Panicked until I realized SHE was back
From California and yes she would see me
But only on Tuesdays or Thursdays and
I would have to drive to Richmond but I was so happy
until today. Before, it was always me
I was the first to leave to move away but then
I couldn’t stay away I’d keep coming back until I couldn’t do it anymore.
First Jerry my first the first time it felt right then
Dimitri the best really so good I’d fly from DC to Dayton to see him
And even when I moved back to Kentucky I’d drive to Dayton to see him
But I knew it was crazy and I finally found
Her here in Lexington until she left me for California then came back and
Left me again to finish school.
I’m happy for you I said
And I am but what about me? What about me?
